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au revoir.

I was looking through previous entries in my diary, (yes I have a real diary) random pictures and little things that I glued in, random quotes, song lyrics and doodles, conversations printed out and the endless ranting here and there about life. And ofcourse, written entries. I realized how much I've grown in just a year.

And it hit me, because I'm about to close that chapter of my life as I'm on my way to a new one soon. It's crazy when I think about it, a little scary even, but I'm looking forward to it. And everything I've learned from the last 18 years, old, familiar faces, old friends, new friends, all the mistakes - which I have a lot of you don't even know, stupid little regrets, lessons learned, good times, bad times, I'm taking all of them with me.

Some know what I'm talking about, and for the rest - not so much.

Sometimes I just have to take a step back from everything and watch how time is passing so fast, honestly I often mix up important things with things that are urgent. I forget about things that I love doing and do things I don't want to do but have to. Life's funny, isn't it? And it all just passes you by and you wake up the next day doing it all over again. I keep a diary because it reminds me about the important things, things that I care about, it keeps little moments of my life in its pages where I can always look back on so I won't forget. Same thing with pictures, but better.

I know I shouldn't let a day pass without telling the people I love how much they mean to me, but I do. I don't know why people often only say what they really feel on a special occasion, or when somebody's leaving, or dying. I've always wondered why.

I miss painting, writing bad poetry and playing the guitar. I miss spending time with my bestfriends and how we used to be. I miss passing notes in class, laughing at inside jokes and popcorn. All the time we wasted wondering how we'd all end up after graduating high school - I miss that too. I also miss my grandparents in the Philippines - I haven't seen them for 2 years now. I miss late night phone calls about absolutely nothing at all.

Anyway, enough of that, I'm going back to school on wednesday already. Haha, here we go again.

But you know what, considering all the crap that life's thrown at me so far, I should give myself credit, I think I did good =)

It's a Tuesday, there's no school, woke up at 10am to hot coffee, banana muffins and MTV in my pajamas, Christmas break starts in 8 days, life is good.

I got random youth pictures from December 10 and 11 from Ate Wheng, none from our performance though. Oh, and I'll get to posting Disneyland pictures one of these days... hopefully =D

Joan, Yna, Me & Chelle practicing

Jeff, Chung, Moi & Chelle

Chelle & Ate Wheng w/ Marie hair bands.
Chelle looked like Santa's little elf helper =D

Camille, c'est moi, Ate Wheng

We learned how to play "My Immortal" on the piano because Chelle rocks.
Look at Jozelle, lol

Yna & Ate Wheng

Okay, I'm tired of putting captions, so just look at the pictures

Freya!!

To Cha, Che & Mhix, I wish you guys were here for Christmas! I miss youuuu =(